I need to write more let the creativity juice flow more. Work is nice but there is nothing creative about it, you literally just crunch numbers. Maybe talk about things that are outside of the normal but what is there outside of the normal.
I guess that's what is wrong with working a dead end job does to you and not nourishing your brain and soul does... you become bland. That part of you who was inquisitive and an explore gets smaller and small until eventually they don't exist anymore.
I am boring. I play it safe and when I don't play it safe, quote on quote, it is me spending money I don't have. I need to get out more and enjoy me. I am sorry to say but I need to take a break from everybody else including my family. I can't put my life on pause and drop things for them, what about me? It's my time, not there time.
They had their moment, it's my time and I am going to do it right and not be a burden.
